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Monday, 28 June 2010
when the past comes back to haunt you
I remember a few years ago, when I was going out with this guy, his best friend was always flirting with me and just seemed like he was a lot more interested than my actual boyfriend... I had a dream that my boyfriend pushed me away and this guy was there for me saying he loved me. Funnily enough I ended up with the friend and having a really long relationship with him. Well basically, I really like someone and both he and his friend like me. Things seem to be going quite well with him but I know that he's confused about me, he's scared of losing me completely if things messed up between us. He barely ever comes out at the moment because he's always working. I know it'll be better in the summer, although he goes away on holiday for 2 weeks 5 days before I get back, so I won't see him and barely speak to him for nearly a month. If I was with him I know he'd be amazing because I know what he's like.. but I can see there being a problem with seeing him. He always has to be in for dinner at like 6 so he's never out for as long as I'd like, he's not allowed out afterwards either... But then his friend lives walking distance from me and is more confident and better with girls, and makes more of an effort to see me, which makes me closer with him. He's so flirty though, and he knows I like his friend. I had a dream last night that the guy I like said to me "I see you as more of a friend than anything else" and then in my dream his friend was there for me and wanted me.. Just like before with my ex and his friend. If I went straight for the friend then I know I'd ruin all chances with the guy I like, which I don't want to do. I'm going to keep on working on the guy I like though, but its so strange how the same sort of thing is kind of happening?
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